If you’ve been a victim of abuse, you know that healing is a life long journey. The physical bruises and pain last a short time compared to the damage that has been has done to your heart and soul. These devotions are not meant to be a “quick fix”, but maybe they could be used as one more way that Jesus might bind up your broken heart.
I’ve called this devotional “Wrestling with God” because whenever I’ve spoken with victims of abuse that is how they feel. They have spent a life wrestling with God, wondering, “Where was God? Does he even exists? And if he does, does he love me?”
These devotions are based off of Psalm 10. We will slowly walk through this Psalm, allowing our hearts to vent our grief, so that the Lord might turn our grief into some level of joy.
Each devotion begins and ends with 2 minutes of silence, so that you might clear away the constant noise of life, and spend a moment listening to Lord through his Word. I believe that silence can help you be aware of your own emotional and spiritual struggle. May the Lord bless you as you wrestle with him in Word and prayer.
Before we walk slowly verse by verse through this Psalm, it might be helpful to read the whole Psalm out loud from beginning to end.
1 Why, Lord, do you stand far off?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
2 In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak,
who are caught in the schemes he devises.
3 He boasts about the cravings of his heart;
he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord.
4 In his pride the wicked man does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
5 His ways are always prosperous;
your laws are rejected by him;
he sneers at all his enemies.
6 He says to himself, “Nothing will ever shake me.”
He swears, “No one will ever do me harm.”
7 His mouth is full of lies and threats;
trouble and evil are under his tongue.
8 He lies in wait near the villages;
from ambush he murders the innocent.
His eyes watch in secret for his victims;
9 like a lion in cover he lies in wait.
He lies in wait to catch the helpless;
he catches the helpless and drags them off in his net.
10 His victims are crushed, they collapse;
they fall under his strength.
11 He says to himself, “God will never notice;
he covers his face and never sees.”
12 Arise, Lord! Lift up your hand, O God.
Do not forget the helpless.
13 Why does the wicked man revile God?
Why does he say to himself,
“He won’t call me to account”?
14 But you, God, see the trouble of the afflicted;
you consider their grief and take it in hand.
The victims commit themselves to you;
you are the helper of the fatherless.
15 Break the arm of the wicked man;
call the evildoer to account for his wickedness
that would not otherwise be found out.
16 The Lord is King for ever and ever;
the nations will perish from his land.
17 You, Lord, hear the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,
18 defending the fatherless and the oppressed,
so that mere earthly mortals
will never again strike terror.